[	mood	|	lazy	]
[	music	|	"Blast from the Past" on TBS	]

So, I watched "Laguna Beach" for the first time tonight. I think I will now discuss the many things I hated about it. (feel free to chime in)

It is centered around a clique of about 8 rich kids. All of whom dress the same, talk the same, walk the same, and basically, are the same. All the girls are gorgeous and have long, layered, highlighted blonde hair. All the boys are even more gorgeous, have brown hair and brown eyes and all dress like little preps. The houses are huge and the kids are wealthy enough to fork over $700 dollars a night to host a "Black and White Affair" hotel party in a hotel right by the ocean. All the girls show up in their slutty little black and white dresses looking like they're gonna break some hearts and the boys show up in suits, looking like sex fiends.

This show made me think of Cheyenne so much I nearly had to turn it off. Their little "exclusive" parties. Their little "clique" where only the beautiful people can befriend you. Their little bubble where no one is quite good enough and everyone talks shit about everyone else behind their backs. Their little fucked up group of "friends." Man, it's such an awful show it's almost addicting. The Laguna kids are the kind that make me a little sick and throw up in my mouth a little (lol). Maybe I just envy them...I never was one after all.

I ended up having to put the little kitten outside for the night last night, which I hated. He cried at my door for at least 2 hours and I wanted nothing more than to bring him back in and have him sleep with me out of the cold, but I was so allergic to him I couldn't even stand to have him in my apartment. Sweetest cat I've ever come into contact with though. And by far the cutest. :) Unfortunately his little kitty hairs are all over my house and I am sneezing like crazy!!

I can't wait for this week to be over...it's dragging like crazy. Speech tomorrow. Wish me luck.

[	mood	|	loved	]
[	music	|	The baby kitty's purring...he's happy to be here.	]

So. A baby kitten followed me home tonight. Seems as if everyone wants to, these days. He/She sat outside my apartment meowing, and who can say no to this face?

Tell me if you lost a kitty!! I am allergic and can't keep him!

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mood

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scared

]

Oh.My.God. I got followed home tonight. By some guy in a Ford truck with a baseball hat on...I am so scared. It really wasn't so bad while I lived with my mom, but now that I'm on my own...

I wish you were sleeping next to me...

[	mood	|	sleepy	]
[	music	|	Conan on 5	]

I just got home from babysitting...got greeted by a very drunk mother 2 and a half hours after she said she'd be home. Don't worry, I don't have anything to do! Or anyone to talk to! I don't need to be home, take your time. (insert sarcasm)

I took the boys to McDonald's for dinner tonight, since the Mighty Kids Meal is their meal of choice. We got there and no more than one minute after we entered the door, they were running to play in the Play Place. At first when we arrived, the Play Place was deserted except for one family with a dark skinned, Native American looking girl, around the age of 5. There was one other girl there who was the same age as Logan (6) and they became fast friends. I noticed the little girl's mother. She could not have been more than 20 years old, or maybe she just looked young. She looked so tired, her eyes were drooping and her hair was messy, but she was doing school work while her daughter played.

About 15 minutes later, 2 beautiful black girls came in with their pregnant mother and a man she was with. They had to have been close to Ethan and Logan's age, too, because soon, all of the kids were playing together. They were playing hide and go seek in the tunnels and chasing each other up and down the slides.

Immediately following the 2 girls, a man and his daughter came in. He looked pretty middle-class, very dirty, like he had a hard day of work but decided to take his daughter to McDonald's for a cheap, satisfying meal. His eyes glistened when he looked at that angel. The little girl had denim overalls and a pink shirt on and quickly joined the playgroup.

Around that time, a woman and her husband and their Down Syndrome son named Cameron joined the Play Place. Cameron walked around holding his hamburger and banging on the colorful tables, but had a constant smile on his face. One of the little girls took Cameron's hand and led him into the Play Place.

Another man and his 2 kids came in. He, also, was dirty with long hair, who looked like he had a hard day's work as well, no doubt one of society's "lower class members". His daughter was the most beautiful little girl I have ever seen in my life. She was probably 8 years old and had a grey shirt on that said "Perfect" in bright pink letters. Could not have described her more to a tee. She had huge green eyes, long eyelashes and long, straight brown hair. Her brother, while younger, looked identical to her. Up the slide they went and joined the others.

Pretty soon, the place was bursting with children's laughter, and I thought to myself:

When did this end for me?

When did this age of innocence end?

The kids didn't notice skin colors. They didn't notice how much money each kids parents made. They didn't notice disabilities or differences. They didn't notice social class or status. It was quite possibly the most beautiful thing I have seen in a long time. Everyone just got along. There was no reason not to. Everyone is equal in the eyes of a child. All they were concerned with was having an amazing time with each other, which they did.

We only stayed for an hour and a half, but the time flew by. Thank God for children and the hope they give to an otherwise hopeless world.

[	mood	|	tired	]
[	music	|	Channel 52.	]

( Read this if you're so bored...it's not interesting. At all. )

[	mood	|	bouncy	]
[	music	|	"Smile" by Vitamin C (dahahaha)	]

( You know you're from Colorado if... )

[	mood	|	hopeful	]
[	music	|	"The Best of Will Farrell"	]

                                           ~Words of inspiration~

*Everyone dies, but not everyone lives.*
*The years teach too much which the days never knew.*
*We are what we run around averting our eyes from.*
*The most wasted day of all is the one during which we have not laughed.*
*Love is blind, not senseless.*
*We do not remember days, we remember moments.*
*I may not have gone where I intended to, but I think I have ended up where I intended to be.*
*I don't intend to tiptoe through life only to arrive safely at death.*
*Be the change you wish to see in the world.*
*Our lives shouldn't be measured on how many breaths we take, but how many moments take our breath away.*
*I would rather die on my feet than live on my knees.*
*It's the heart afraid of breaking that never learns to dance. The greatest risk of all is to never take a chance.*

AlpineSurfBum: Arent i lucky.
LuckyGiggles03: I dont know, are you?
AlpineSurfBum: Very lucky.

When I fall, you pick me up.

When I cry, you dry my tears.

When I feel helpless and alone, you make me realize my worth.

I want so badly to be happy, but I can only do it myself.